Today, i had my little female guinea pig Foley put down. Im so hurt by it, inside i just ach and throb. When i took her today, i wanted to be there when they uthenized her, big mistake. They asked me to hold her wile they stuck the needel in her belly, i couldent do it, so another came a did it. She let out a shriek in pain and fear that just cut me worse then any blade ever could. I sat and sobbed wile talking to her as i watched her stomach slowly stop moving. It was the worst experiance of my life, i know it was for the best and that she would never get better, but it still hurts so much. My mom is devestated, having loved her as much as i did, luckily she wasent there for the unthenasia or she would have been traumatized for life. I will never forget the look in her eyes, it gives me a little ease to know she was able to see me there with her as she died. Well, i just felt i needed to write this, it helps me a little i guess. Take care and thanks.